Good morning!

Today is a beautiful day, the sun is out and a cool breeze is sneaking through my window. I am sitting here listening to a sermon and thinking about some of the items that will go on my list of things to do. Lord I am trusting you in the upcoming months to put me where you want me and Lord although I  have plans in my heart, I will meditate upon your word and trust you in everything.

I pray that you shape me into all that I can be and that you help me to intercede on behalf of others. I pray for two ladies I know who may encounter difficulties in their own lives Lord guide them, Lord teach them to listen, Lord speak to their hearts.

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Dear God

I am thankful for you Lord! I am thankful for your presence, even when at times my life is so clouded and I can't feel your presence although I know you're there. I want to ask you for forgiveness because I have been trying to do things selfishly at times and Lord I just want to be a blessing for your kingdom. Right now I have some ideas of what I want to do for the next 5 years, but Lord I need you to help me because I need focus. Lord help me! I have learned that I need to wait on you and be patient. Waiting is so hard to do! I want to be a great teacher, I want to be an investor and I want  a family.

I have to get ready now. I am starting my study goals right now!

Dear God

Life is confusing! There are times I lose focus and feel like I should just give up on my dreams and just settle, but a glimpse of hope and faith keep me dreaming. At times I have to stop and just take a deep breath...God I almost gave up on you and that's the most disappointing part of it all.

I know that trials and doubts only make great learning opportunities and so I just want to learn from my past, the present and the situations and experiences that will come.

I am learning to be myself, not to  be afraid to be me and think my own thoughts and make my own decisions and to be a leader not a follower. I am learning not to do or say things to seek approval from others because I only want to be pleasing to you and I find that I have been at times trying to be on everyone's good side, forgetting that I can't please everyone.

I am also learning more about myself as I reflect on the woman I am, I've been and the woman I want to be. I would love someday to be a great mother and although I feel I need experience with relationships, I know that God in your timing and even now you are teaching me how to trust and be a proverbs 31 woman...I feel so unworthy when I compare myself to a Proverbs 31 woman, but I am praying God that you change my hearts desire and renew my perspective on life...the godly perspective to love and live each day like its my last.

I am off to a church service now, but God spare my life when I come home I will again attempt to work on my goals.