Life is confusing! There are times I lose focus and feel like I should just give up on my dreams and just settle, but a glimpse of hope and faith keep me dreaming. At times I have to stop and just take a deep breath...God I almost gave up on you and that's the most disappointing part of it all.
I know that trials and doubts only make great learning opportunities and so I just want to learn from my past, the present and the situations and experiences that will come.
I am learning to be myself, not to be afraid to be me and think my own thoughts and make my own decisions and to be a leader not a follower. I am learning not to do or say things to seek approval from others because I only want to be pleasing to you and I find that I have been at times trying to be on everyone's good side, forgetting that I can't please everyone.
I am also learning more about myself as I reflect on the woman I am, I've been and the woman I want to be. I would love someday to be a great mother and although I feel I need experience with relationships, I know that God in your timing and even now you are teaching me how to trust and be a proverbs 31 woman...I feel so unworthy when I compare myself to a Proverbs 31 woman, but I am praying God that you change my hearts desire and renew my perspective on life...the godly perspective to love and live each day like its my last.
I am off to a church service now, but God spare my life when I come home I will again attempt to work on my goals.
I know that trials and doubts only make great learning opportunities and so I just want to learn from my past, the present and the situations and experiences that will come.
I am learning to be myself, not to be afraid to be me and think my own thoughts and make my own decisions and to be a leader not a follower. I am learning not to do or say things to seek approval from others because I only want to be pleasing to you and I find that I have been at times trying to be on everyone's good side, forgetting that I can't please everyone.
I am also learning more about myself as I reflect on the woman I am, I've been and the woman I want to be. I would love someday to be a great mother and although I feel I need experience with relationships, I know that God in your timing and even now you are teaching me how to trust and be a proverbs 31 woman...I feel so unworthy when I compare myself to a Proverbs 31 woman, but I am praying God that you change my hearts desire and renew my perspective on life...the godly perspective to love and live each day like its my last.
I am off to a church service now, but God spare my life when I come home I will again attempt to work on my goals.
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