I only want to be in love with Jesus, Lord renew my mind, renew my thoughts and show me what it means to fall deep in love with you. I want to go deeper than I have ever been before to a place where when my whole world is falling apart, I remain calm, loving you more in my heart. I don't want anyone to take my love for you no man or friend. I will put you first.

Lord remind me to always pray and not lose heart. I want your Holy Spirit to control me. I surrender everything to you because I can't do it. I acknowledge my selfishness and my sin and I repent. I don't want to live a selfish life or invest in the physical things of this world, but Lord I just want to be satisfied in you.

I have not been faithful. Lord grant me your favor, forgive me. I have been lukewarm and not hot for you. Sometimes I feel like Lord I don't know why you love me and choose to love me despite the times I have denied you.

Lord, I know that I don't have to worry about what people think, but I just need to put you first and serve you.

Accept me Lord, not because of what I have done. but because of what I can never do in terms of righteousness, but to live by faith and seek your will all the days of my life. I love you Lord and I keep holding on.

Life...when you feel like you've hit rock bottom...hold on

While I am not at rock bottom yet, it is so unbelievably amazing how things can change in your life from one moment to the next. Situations happen where at one moment it feels like you can conquer the world and you are on a very high pinnacle, but there are those where you feel life has take a 360 degree turn on you and you find yourself struggling. What happens to faith? Well, for me whenever I take my eyes off of God, even but for a second I lose all sense of my reality of faith and begin to focus on my problems...my problems then begin to look bigger and bigger.

I know that I need to refocus my attention on God, but avoiding distractions has proven at times to be quite difficult, but I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me.

Now, I am not sure what is ahead for me or where and what God will have me to do next, but I am realizing that a life of faith will see me through each and every circumstance if I just stay in communion with my Heavenly Father and don't focus on what other people might say or do.

The battle often occurs in the mind and I have to be careful because if I start to believe the lies that the enemy proposes, it could literally change my whole life. Our thoughts eventually change our actions if we believe them.

People are people is a piece of advice that I heard last week. It really stuck with me!
This helps to put ideas into perspective especially when at times we feel judged or if we are tempted to pass judgments. It is never OKAY to do so. From experience, I know how it feels to be judged and to mess up and say things that people take in a judgmental way. The enemy at times would love to play on our mistakes, but at the end of the day KNOW that God is bigger than all our problems, perceptions, mistakes and disappointments.

There has to be a purpose why I am in this predicament that I am in now and my response in any event will be to praise the Lord and to let not thoughts come in the way from obscuring my fellowship or judgment. God grant me to wisdom. I want more wisdom and desire it to make decisions that are pleasing to you.

I want that faith that continues to persist and persist despite the hard times, a faith that just continues to seek you Lord in everything and that literally sees you working out everything for our own good. God is in control!

I was so blessed by the sermon preached yesterday morning by a visiting pastor and even more encouraged that he helped to shift my focus back on God. I know I have messed up a times  and taken my faith for granted. I don't generally consider myself a quitter, but I know the feeling of almost giving up on God and everyone else and being tempted to not care anymore. Lord it is quite lonely and I never want to neglect the faith that you have given me. Your word says that everyone must work out their own salvation and so that is what I will continue to do.

My desire is to glorify your name. Father glorify your name :)