Thursday, July 21, 2011
Dear Jesus: Prayer and Future goals
I am getting more serious with my prayer life. I have never been a prayer warrior, but my heart is willing to learn, my heart is willing to do anything to get my life in check and a closer relationship with my Savior. My daily devotion now is closely guided by John MacArthur`s Drawing Near book, it has a passage to read from and prayer suggestions for each day of the year. Wow, I have so much to learn. At this point in time I have a passion for languages and for getting these music notes memorized :) I want to learn seriously how to read music notes fluently. My problem is that I start and stop, start and stop, but no more. I have to get serious now. Ahhhhhhhhh let`s say God spare my life to see the next 6 months I should achieve these goals. I know it may seem like a long amount of time, but with my type of schedule,I think it is a fair amount of time. :) Okay, I am going to take a nap now.
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Dear Jesus: Giving others a chance
Ahhhhhh! It has been awhile since I have written.
What have I been up to? Well, nothing much. In the summer I have to create a summer program for my students, so I have been focusing on creating a summer program. What else? Nothing much really. I have been studying spanish here and there and currently I am hoping to get a teacher or to join a spanish class. I have practiced the guitar here and there, but I have not really continued with my songwriting. This month I have joined a gym because I am on a mission to get in shape, fit and to remain healthy....I have a wedding to attend in a few months. Ummm..,that's about it. I know that I need to learn how to prioritize especially within the next few months I have some personal goals that I would like to achieve, but I need to focus on one goal at a time, so I am going to give my priorities over to God in prayer so that I can get my priorities right. Ahhhhhh, what else? I am sorry if this blog may seem a bit boring at times, but I will do my best to make it as interesting as possible. Although what I blog actually reflects how I am feeling and my thoughts at the moment. Because of my lack of trust of others sometimes, I have lost many opportunities to get to know others or just share my testimony and encourage others. Specifically, this has been the case for me in the past 6 months, but I prayed that God would just have me to trust Him and not others and to take advantage to share the gospel and to encourage others. I am shy naturally and sometimes I just get too shy around others and sometimes I do well. Anyways, God is good. I met three people within the past 6 months who approached me for help or conversation, although I did not give out my number, I did pass along my email. They have emailed me and now I have decided to create friendships and whenever possible provide them with the help that they need (simple-help with improving their English conversation skills). Before I guess I just would have made up a reason in my head and a justification to go along with why I would not be able to help out, but now I thank God that He has allowed me to give people a chance and to use these opportunities as ways to help....and then witness to them about Jesus.
What have I been up to? Well, nothing much. In the summer I have to create a summer program for my students, so I have been focusing on creating a summer program. What else? Nothing much really. I have been studying spanish here and there and currently I am hoping to get a teacher or to join a spanish class. I have practiced the guitar here and there, but I have not really continued with my songwriting. This month I have joined a gym because I am on a mission to get in shape, fit and to remain healthy....I have a wedding to attend in a few months. Ummm..,that's about it. I know that I need to learn how to prioritize especially within the next few months I have some personal goals that I would like to achieve, but I need to focus on one goal at a time, so I am going to give my priorities over to God in prayer so that I can get my priorities right. Ahhhhhh, what else? I am sorry if this blog may seem a bit boring at times, but I will do my best to make it as interesting as possible. Although what I blog actually reflects how I am feeling and my thoughts at the moment. Because of my lack of trust of others sometimes, I have lost many opportunities to get to know others or just share my testimony and encourage others. Specifically, this has been the case for me in the past 6 months, but I prayed that God would just have me to trust Him and not others and to take advantage to share the gospel and to encourage others. I am shy naturally and sometimes I just get too shy around others and sometimes I do well. Anyways, God is good. I met three people within the past 6 months who approached me for help or conversation, although I did not give out my number, I did pass along my email. They have emailed me and now I have decided to create friendships and whenever possible provide them with the help that they need (simple-help with improving their English conversation skills). Before I guess I just would have made up a reason in my head and a justification to go along with why I would not be able to help out, but now I thank God that He has allowed me to give people a chance and to use these opportunities as ways to help....and then witness to them about Jesus.
Monday, July 11, 2011
Dear Jesus: Heaven and Hell
Heaven and Hell is real. God will judge the quick and the dead. No one can tell when their last day on earth will be. For some who may think they have many more years to come, sometimes they are minutes away from meeeting their eternal destiny. For others who may be ill and thinking that they have only a few more days before they enter an eternity, sometimes we see God's grace extending their lives for several more years. We live in a world of opposites.
No matter how much we try to not think about death. It must come. Everyone should be concerned about their eternity and think about it daily so that it influences how they live life on earth.
Evangelism is critical. Jesus please touch my mouth and show me how to share your word with others, without being aggressive or demanding.
No matter how much we try to not think about death. It must come. Everyone should be concerned about their eternity and think about it daily so that it influences how they live life on earth.
Evangelism is critical. Jesus please touch my mouth and show me how to share your word with others, without being aggressive or demanding.
Monday, July 4, 2011
Dear Jesus: I am having a bad day
I am sitting on my bed stuffing my face with oreo cookies, I just finished eating a cream cheese bagel and I bought two strawberry ice cream bars for later....I am having a bad day. At first, I did take out my bible and I read a scripture, but I don`t even know which scripture it was now. I also asked YOU Lord to just help me. It feels like I am going around in circles and I don`t think I am actually accomplishing much for YOU. Anyways I will be attending a new church now during my stay here and I also hope to attend some small groups. I wanted to go shopping today or just walking and mirror shopping just to get things off my mind. I didn`t feel like journaling or grabbing my camera to take photos...Ahhh Jesus even though I feel this way I love you all the more. To know that there is hope and my hope is in YOU is refreshing because I don`t know what I would do or how I could begin to get the smallest peace of mind without YOU.
So my dilemma now is I have begun to care about what others think, I guess. Although it is not a major impact that drives my actions it does concern me a little. I also have to deal with diverse personalities at my place of work of which some have a `different mentality`of life and people altogether.
Second, although I won`t get too specific. I guess I have been fearful (not really fearful), but lacking confidence in other areas of my life where I would like to excel. Also, I have begun to dedicate more time to myself and skill that I haven`t really focused on YOU. It is as if I am busy preparing myself for minisries, looking ahead into the future of what could be, but not really renewing my mind daily with YOUR word and living one day at a time.
Also, I think if you could open my heart and see it, maybe you would see much desire and dedication, fearlessness of certain things in life, fearfulness, a waving dedication to serve YOU, much indecisiveness at times, and maybe a little selfishness (I need to work on this), although there is love I want love not only for those close to me, but for everyone, I want more courage, I want WISDOM and I need a bit of forgiveness. Life is so difficult and sometimes it can feel like I am going in circles.
I am going to go eat some more oreos now. :(
So my dilemma now is I have begun to care about what others think, I guess. Although it is not a major impact that drives my actions it does concern me a little. I also have to deal with diverse personalities at my place of work of which some have a `different mentality`of life and people altogether.
Second, although I won`t get too specific. I guess I have been fearful (not really fearful), but lacking confidence in other areas of my life where I would like to excel. Also, I have begun to dedicate more time to myself and skill that I haven`t really focused on YOU. It is as if I am busy preparing myself for minisries, looking ahead into the future of what could be, but not really renewing my mind daily with YOUR word and living one day at a time.
Also, I think if you could open my heart and see it, maybe you would see much desire and dedication, fearlessness of certain things in life, fearfulness, a waving dedication to serve YOU, much indecisiveness at times, and maybe a little selfishness (I need to work on this), although there is love I want love not only for those close to me, but for everyone, I want more courage, I want WISDOM and I need a bit of forgiveness. Life is so difficult and sometimes it can feel like I am going in circles.
I am going to go eat some more oreos now. :(
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