reflection

I'll have to step back and think! I'll have to take a step back and pray! I urgently need wisdom from God. I don't like living anxiously, but in everything I am reminded that I should give thanks and be in prayer. This is life Lord and I can't just let it pass by without doing what really matters or doing any work for the kingdom. The past few days have got me seriously thinking about opportunities around the world to serve an to use the gifts that you have blessed me with.

I reflect on almost a year ago when the only thing that mattered was pleasing you, I was on a purging diet from worrying about all the cares of this world. I reckoned that if I could just draw closer to YOU Lord, I could be spiritually strong.

It feels like I'm desperately failing these string of tests and temptations to be a good steward with what you have given me, to love like you do  and to give. I am all over the place right now Lord and I need direction and most of all guidance and wisdom in every decision made.

Forgive me for selfish living and not always considering others above myself. Forgive me for not trusting you fully to deliver me from difficult situations and for anxious thinking and living. There's so much Lord, but you know it all and I am trusting you to help me focus on the kingdom and storing treasures on Heaven than on earth.