Dear Jesus

It is never easy starting over. It doesn't matter who you are or what you are starting over on. I can remember a time when as a student I made the silly mistake of not saving changes to an essay, and the thought of starting over was enough discouragement for me. I have been trying to hear your voice, but I haven't been seeking you earnestly. I am discouraged, but I will never give up running the race and pushing towards that which you have called me too. Even if it means returning to the starting line and starting over that is what I am committed to do. I am sorry that I have taken a few things for granted and that I have compromised my alone time with you to oversee other tasks. I am committed to you. I always need to remind myself that I can't do things in my own strength, but with you I am more than a conqueror.

I am starting over and I am encouraged that I am not alone. Starting over will not be easy, but I find confidence in God and knowing that with Him I am more than a conqueror.

For the past few months, I have been doubting others and making assumptions about people's intentions. Opportunities for me to help people turned into me thinking and questioning others sincerity, and whether some people just wanted to take advantage of my generosity. I noticed these assumptions came from a bad experience I had with another individual I had trusted. I had not quite forgiven this person, but as of today I let it go. Jesus, if I should have temptations to revisit this past experience or should I be tempted to have wrongful thinking or want to make assumptions or even talk about the individual in the past who had let me down, please I need you to give me a scripture on which I can medidate. From today I entrust my thought life to you, I will not dwell on the past mistakes of others, I will examine myself. Please help me to admit my own mistakes and wrong doings and to take everything to you in prayer rather than making hasty decisions. Help me to no longer be complacent or lazy concerning the things of God.

Dear Jesus

I am so guilty. Guilty of selfishness, guilty of taking things for granted and worse of all  guilty of not counting my blessings and not always giving thanks. It was difficult to realize these patterns in my life especially when I was concerned about meeting my needs. I didn't think about others as I once use too. You showed me that I can't change by myself I can't carry my own burdens and change my thoughts or path in life, I need YOU.

Jesus sometimes I look at the faults of others instead of focusing on myself. Sometimes I make excuses because I don't want to feel like I failed or I am not as knowledgeable in a certain area of my life. I don't want to admit the failures because if I do I won't feel as worthy. This has been holding me back in a meaningful relationship with you. If I can't admit and swallow failures in my everyday relationships with others then how can I expect to confess my wrong doings against you sincerely. I know I am not perfect, there is none righteous but YOU.

I need YOU. I want YOU to take full control of my life with no conditions attached. Use me as you please, put your desires in my heart and make my hopes your hope. I want YOU to shine through me. I want your beauty. This is my desire.

Dear Jesus

I have a friend who is going through a tough time in her life. I can't see her heart or feel her emotions, but I know that everything that I have gone through, although I didn't understand it then, YOU were working in my life for a specific purpose. In her life, I know YOU do the same. Sometimes it is so hard to think this way when we are in the midst of a battle, but I have come to learn that peace comes only from the confidence and trust I put in you.

Dear Jesus

It has been a few days since I wrote. I confess that this week I lost focus on my service. I spent most of my time just resting and thinking. This week I thought about different issues related to communication and the building of trusting relationships with others. I am still seeking answers and I pray that I seek and find direction from YOU and none other.

Dear Jesus

Please strengthen me and remind me that I can do all things through your strength. I set a new goal to work on for myself and I know that as I pray about it and rely on your word to show me just how that I can achieve this goal. My goal is to not leave anything unfinished. You know there is a saying to finish what you start and another saying that compliments it well: to do things properly. There have been many situations in my life where I failed to things properly or I just aimed for satisfaction, but Lord I know that I need to make sure I do things right in each area of my life, especially when I am seeking to serve you. I want to offer 150% every time. Please remind me that even when I am performing at work, school or other places in my life in which I serve others that it is also an opportunity not to only serve others but to serve you. Please give me more wisdom and enhance my faith and determination to serve you and others better. Help me not to focus to hard on what others think of me, or to constantly compare myself to others too much. I find that if I do so I tend to lose my focus and sometimes not finish what I start because I think I may not perform as well. I thank you that you are always there to listen to me and to speak to me through your word (the bible). I find much encouragement in reading about how many found strength in you and pressed onward despite the persecutions life threw at them. I love you too much for words to describe. Keep me grounded and firm in my faith, always learning and growing more mature as a believe in you and most importantly, always desiring and pursuing after you.