I have a desire to learn more about Your love Jesus. I want to know what it means to love like you love, although this will be most difficult especially in the world today. I want to know what love feels like without boundaries, loving and fervently praying for those who hurt me. Loving with forgiveness. Loving those that are most vulnerable and the outcast of society. I desire to love like you do. I don't want to love for love in return or for mere convenience and the benefits or satisfaction of receiving love in return.
God You are greater than all our problems and the love that You showed by sending your only Son to die for sinners demonstrates the essence of love. Loving me despite my faults and failures or the endless wrongs that I have committed against you.
I rely only on You, but I know that You will bring special people into my life, who I must look after, special sheep, people that are hurting or longing for care and I want to do my best to witness to them not just in word, but deeds.
Please help me with the desires that have been placed on my heart. Help me to win the endless battles in my mind. I am more than a conqueror and I constantly want to be focusing on how to glorify your name, share the Gospel and serve the emotional needs of others. Thank you for the sheep and Shepphards that You have brought in my life and will bring in my life. Help me to love as You love me and not for convenience. This is my desire.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Dear God....From Selfish Ambitions to Humility and Selflessness
These past weeks I have been examining myself. You are showing me that I still have behaviors and habits that I need to work on. Looking at my life I see that I am trying to serve you, but still relying sometimes on my efforts. Sometimes I see traces of selfishness continuously emerging in my thought life and turning into action. Sometimes I see traces of stubbornness in me arising and constant justification of my actions even when I know that I should admit my failures. I am bringing these behaviors to You and I ask that You help me to change. I know that the longer a person conforms to their pattern of thinking and destructive behaviors, the harder it is to change them. A missionary cannot be selfish or proud or show partiality. Help me to get rid of even any little traces of such behavior.
I have something else on my heart and mind. I am looking for direction in life. Where do you want me next? I sense now that I may need to work on these behaviors first before You will move me to where it is You want me to be. I apologize that my Quiet Time with You has not been solely focused on You. I just let distractions get in the way...Right now it seems as if there are so many opportunities and open doors. Jesus please close those doors that You do not want me to walk through, but those that you do desire me to go through then please keep them open and order my steps.
You put a desire in my heart...I think it was You or I hope is not my selfish ambitions arising in me. Recently, I found an ongoing passion to learn languages. Thinking from a business perspective...I thought about the potential business and employment opportunities that are granted to people who speak several languages. However, thinking from Your perspective Lord, I thought to myself maybe You want to use these languages for my missionary work in sharing the news of Your love and the message of the Gospel with others. Is this what You want? Lord, please speak to my heart about this because I have just been getting to excited about all this language and learning and my passion for learning one language has quickly risen to about 6. Please help me to remain realistic and help me to not place these new passions above our relationship. I don't want to glorify all these new passions and interests, only You. However, if it is Your desire for me to learn 6 and even more then provide me the wisdom and understanding and continued dedication to learn and use these languages faithfully and for no other purpose than sharing the Gospel with others, drawing people closer and into a relationship with You and serving the emotional needs of others.
It seems as if a year ago was just yesterday. Time flies doesn't it? I have one more concern on my heart. There is so much violence in the world and although I am not surprised because the Bible talks about all these things, I am overwhelmed. It hurts to watch the news and hear the news of senseless murders and deaths. I wonder if that person knew You. I think immediately "the deceased" as the news anchors refers to the victim, is really someone, a living soul who is now standing before You and giving an account for their life. Father, but yet I feel like a nominal Christian...strengthen me again. Help me as I renew my mind and constantly shape and humble me. I want to see that in everything I do, say and in all of my actions that I diligently serve You and not fail to share the Gospel with others. Father please help me to take care of the fatherless. The fatherless I consider as anyone who is hurting and You know father many people are hurting. I think that the celebrities hurt sometimes the most. Some people have so much money, mansions, private jets and all the riches that one may hope for, but inside they are so empty. Help me to live only for You and always for You. I desire to see You face to face one day, until then help me to live by faith in a hopeless world. I love You and my one desire is to serve You and to do so faithfully.
I have something else on my heart and mind. I am looking for direction in life. Where do you want me next? I sense now that I may need to work on these behaviors first before You will move me to where it is You want me to be. I apologize that my Quiet Time with You has not been solely focused on You. I just let distractions get in the way...Right now it seems as if there are so many opportunities and open doors. Jesus please close those doors that You do not want me to walk through, but those that you do desire me to go through then please keep them open and order my steps.
You put a desire in my heart...I think it was You or I hope is not my selfish ambitions arising in me. Recently, I found an ongoing passion to learn languages. Thinking from a business perspective...I thought about the potential business and employment opportunities that are granted to people who speak several languages. However, thinking from Your perspective Lord, I thought to myself maybe You want to use these languages for my missionary work in sharing the news of Your love and the message of the Gospel with others. Is this what You want? Lord, please speak to my heart about this because I have just been getting to excited about all this language and learning and my passion for learning one language has quickly risen to about 6. Please help me to remain realistic and help me to not place these new passions above our relationship. I don't want to glorify all these new passions and interests, only You. However, if it is Your desire for me to learn 6 and even more then provide me the wisdom and understanding and continued dedication to learn and use these languages faithfully and for no other purpose than sharing the Gospel with others, drawing people closer and into a relationship with You and serving the emotional needs of others.
It seems as if a year ago was just yesterday. Time flies doesn't it? I have one more concern on my heart. There is so much violence in the world and although I am not surprised because the Bible talks about all these things, I am overwhelmed. It hurts to watch the news and hear the news of senseless murders and deaths. I wonder if that person knew You. I think immediately "the deceased" as the news anchors refers to the victim, is really someone, a living soul who is now standing before You and giving an account for their life. Father, but yet I feel like a nominal Christian...strengthen me again. Help me as I renew my mind and constantly shape and humble me. I want to see that in everything I do, say and in all of my actions that I diligently serve You and not fail to share the Gospel with others. Father please help me to take care of the fatherless. The fatherless I consider as anyone who is hurting and You know father many people are hurting. I think that the celebrities hurt sometimes the most. Some people have so much money, mansions, private jets and all the riches that one may hope for, but inside they are so empty. Help me to live only for You and always for You. I desire to see You face to face one day, until then help me to live by faith in a hopeless world. I love You and my one desire is to serve You and to do so faithfully.
Monday, January 2, 2012
I need you more
Dear: God,
I need to know that You are with me. I sometimes feel so confused and although I pray, it is confusing when the silence is louder than the noise. Why are you silent? Is it that I am not praying sincerely? Lord, I don't want to ask for my own benefit, but I just want to fulfill the desires of Your heart. Please make my desires in line with your desires. Please remind me that this life is temporal and only what I do for you will last. I love You and I trust You, bur I noticed that even for a moment when I focus on the worries of this world and lose my focus on You even but for a moment, my mind wanders and I end up concentrating on the wrong things. You know my prayer now and Jesus I know that You will answer and that sometimes You answer with a no. When I am tempted to be selfish or to think about myself help me to do something radical that demonstrates a dedication and a commitment to renewing my mind and seeking after YOU. I want to love and put others first over my self seeking ways and my own benefits. I need to renew my mind daily and Jesus, I will do this. I just want to make YOU happy and no matter where you bring me Jesus. Sometimes I feel like I can conquer the world for YOU and other times I just feel defeated, like I should be further along in life when I compare myself to others. I will not compare myself to others Jesus, but whenever I am tempted to do so, I am resolved to think about eternity and the souls of the lost. I am resolved to think of new ways to share the Gospel with others and to bring hope and serve the emotional needs of the hurting. I love you Jesus, I am going to get some rest now.
I need to know that You are with me. I sometimes feel so confused and although I pray, it is confusing when the silence is louder than the noise. Why are you silent? Is it that I am not praying sincerely? Lord, I don't want to ask for my own benefit, but I just want to fulfill the desires of Your heart. Please make my desires in line with your desires. Please remind me that this life is temporal and only what I do for you will last. I love You and I trust You, bur I noticed that even for a moment when I focus on the worries of this world and lose my focus on You even but for a moment, my mind wanders and I end up concentrating on the wrong things. You know my prayer now and Jesus I know that You will answer and that sometimes You answer with a no. When I am tempted to be selfish or to think about myself help me to do something radical that demonstrates a dedication and a commitment to renewing my mind and seeking after YOU. I want to love and put others first over my self seeking ways and my own benefits. I need to renew my mind daily and Jesus, I will do this. I just want to make YOU happy and no matter where you bring me Jesus. Sometimes I feel like I can conquer the world for YOU and other times I just feel defeated, like I should be further along in life when I compare myself to others. I will not compare myself to others Jesus, but whenever I am tempted to do so, I am resolved to think about eternity and the souls of the lost. I am resolved to think of new ways to share the Gospel with others and to bring hope and serve the emotional needs of the hurting. I love you Jesus, I am going to get some rest now.
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