Dear God

Wow! I can't believe I'm almost done with my education program and although I feel things could have gone better, I am ready Lord for a new start. I really want to become more independent and to save more for maybe my own house some day with a recording studio....:) It seems like this is a dream, but I know I can achieve it, if I just stay focused. Lord help me to stay focused. I want to move (maybe another country or city), but I just need to move. Right now I feel like I am a taker, but I want to be a giver. Lord help me to make wise decisions and to be a light to those people that I will meet along the way.

Teach me about relationships, there is a particular individual who I really want to encourage and I only have this week to do so, please give me the words to say to this person. I want him to know you and understand that he can find love, peace and joy in you.

Lord, sometimes I feel like an ineffective witness because I question my walk with you and question if I am really in a position to lead others to you. I thank you Lord that you are a gracious God and I know that everyone makes mistakes so Lord when I fall remind me that your grace is sufficient for me.

I want to live with integrity and honesty, please forgive me for the times I have failed to do so.

I love you :)

I ask myself about life

and how much longer Lord do I have to fight the good fight of faith.. Yes, life is great at times and at times it is difficult to maneuver, but I find strength in Christ to never give up. Sometimes I am tired of the same routines down here on earth and knowing that God spare my life that there as long as I am on this earth there are still more trials to overcome. I question myself at times how good of a witness am I for you? Especially during those times (which feels like often) where I get so caught up in my own interests I oversee the hurting all around me. Sometimes I give into stubborness that I miss opportunities to hurt so that others can heal and find peace in you. I can't wait for what heaven will be like, no more mistakes, perfected, not worrying about hurting others and You Lord, but only always getting things right from there on. My prayer is for someone who feels unwanted and my untimely comments probably didn't make this person feel anymore special. This person has made mistakes which some people would deem unforgiveable, but Lord I so just want this person to know that You still love and cherish this person and there is nothing that this person has done that you will not forgive when they put their faith in you. It is so simple! But why Lord do I have trouble letting them know this and particularly this person. Lord give me strength and always remind me that the beginning of wisdom is the fear of the Lord, but fearing you in reverence. I love you and I won't give up, no matter how  difficult this life might be at times. Lord remind me also that you won't let me go and even when I'm blinded to your love and feel at my worse Lord let your presence hover over me and may I just rest in your peace. Dear God, I know I haven't said this much these past few months, but I really love you! Please help me find someone who will try to out beat me in loving you. Amen !

I'm falling

because I haven't been in daily communication with you, constant communication with you. Lord, please help me to get back on track, I still have some time left to win souls, but how can I if I mingle with the affairs of the world. Constantly renew my mind as I read your word. I need to stay focus. Lord help me forget about the worries and temporary pleasures of this world and help me to constantly renew myself in your word. My identity is in You. Lord have your way in me. 

Fighting to move forward

Sometimes I feel like I can just scream! Yet deep down inside when it feels like no one is there, I still hold onto that string of hope and peace that is found in knowing you. I have been quite rebellious these past few months Lord and wanting to  do things in my own strength and rely on my own understanding for everything. As I am getting older, I noticed that I've been getting a bit anxious for certain things. Why? I've lost focused on my heavenly mission and all I need is to get closer to you. 

These past few months, I've been losing the battle. Too focused on what others have been thinking about me...I lost sight of the fact that only what You think of me Lord matters. The enemy tries to discourage me by replaying my faults and missed opportunities to share the Gospel with others and I feel at times another soul remains lost because I failed to show them You Lord. 

Help my stubborness! Direct my energy and thoughts on You and you only and help me to forgive and love my enemies. It's difficult and even impossible to do in my own strength, but I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me.

I love you Lord :)

Dear God

I need  you every minute. Deliver me from the thoughts and the temptations that do not glorify YOU. Draw me back by Your Spirit to the place I was with you before, refine the fire and desire within me to study your word and open my eyes that I may daily understand that the time is short and do my best to redeem the time and share the Gospel with others in word and most importantly as a living testimony. Amen

Dear God: Forgiveness

Thank you God for today and for showing me today that I am a new creation and I don't have to entangle myself in sin. I did it! I was angry and wanted to repay someone with the hurt they had hurt me with and so I took up the avoidance behavior again. God you have shown me that my ministry is a ministry of reconciliation and not shunning. Forgive me Lord! 

I need wisdom, Lord give me wisdom! I need it to deal with this situation. I pray for this particular person. I pray that this person be able to forgive me for whatever hurt I've caused. Forgive me to Lord. I want to love as you command in 1 Corinthians. Lord, let me do what is pleasing in YOUR eyes and only YOUR eyes then I will know for sure that I will be loving as you do. 

Lord I pray for understanding from this person and most importantly that you continue to put the desire in me to heed your word, to forgive and even through forgiveness that I may be able to win some to you. God let me never forget your truth. 

Amen

Happy New Year

I thank you God for another year of life. As I move forward this year I am going to trust you ALWAYS. It has been difficult because Lord you know that I have been challenged with this trust and I recognize that forgiveness has a big part to do with it. I am going to count my blessings and I seek maturity not only as a person, but as a child in Christ. I will write more about my goals here soon.