Sunday, May 29, 2011
Dear Jesus
I should be working on my lesson plan tomorrow, but I am thinking about my life. I am thinking about how difficult it is for me to just get my life in order when it comes to serving you. I start out good at first, but then I take my eyes off of you and my life turns another direction. How do I stay on track? Today I heard a message on generosity and the cheerful giver and I thought about just how selfish I was and some of the selfish decisions I have made in my life. It is so difficult though because when I focus my attention on serving you then others and myself last, sometimes when I do put others before myself it is hard to draw the line in terms of when people always just want to take from you all the time just because they know that you are always giving. I need you to give me wisdom. I just want YOU, and I know that YOU will always provide for me. I realized that when I had less I was so much more willing to give, but now that I have more it is as if I am holding onto what I have and also wanting more. It stops now Jesus, You are master over my life, so I ask you that you show me what it means to have abundance of life not in my possessions, but in You. Help me to follow your example of putting others first by reminding me of Your examples whenever I have decisions to make concerning giving. I also want to learn what it means to be a cheerful giver and what it means to make sacrifices for you. Teach me, show me, help me please.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
A soulwinner
I want to be a soulwinner. I want to have that hunger after the things of God. I want to embrace the gospel as I did when I was younger, I want to be able to learn and share more about you. Okay I have been thinking about this goal, every month I want to find 10 people with whom I can share the gospel with. I prayed this week for me to be more open with others and to share my personal testimony about You so that they can have something to connect or relate their experiences too.
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Dear Jesus
Today I participated in an event. I was a few minutes late and saw that I may have disappointed some of the teachers that were relying on me. I will be early ALWAYS from now on. The event nonetheless I would say was successful. Following the event I went out for lunch with one of my teachers and we had a nice discussion. The food was sooooooooo good. I love buffets especially for the chicken. The chicken was quite delicious. As I walked home I thought about my life again. I have more than what I need, but I am not doing anything with it. Is it just my bad habit of procrastinating or my fear that I can't see success as I would like too.
I need to try. I need to try, and pray and ask YOU Lord to take control. I don't see my set future and that scares me a bit, but I ust see myself as I have always been kind of wnadering and roaming this earth taking each day that you give me at a time. I don't think my imagination can stretch that far of how beautiful heaven will be, even with the description YOU give to us in the Bible.
Ok, now I want to ask of YOU Lord, one favor that you make a change in my heart to soften it again as a little child, not seeking after things that will benefit me, but to consider others first. I think I have become quite content with blessings that YOU have given to me over the years, that sometimes I am not thankful enough or considerate of others.
Second, I want to be able to connect with other people, no more putting up safe guards, or secrets, but I want to be able to open my heart to them of course using wisdom so that they can see genuiness and so that I can be a stronger witness for YOU.
Last I just want to develop a drive, a drive and passion that I see in others who seek after YOU day and night and they are not satisfied unless they are completely satisfied in YOU and following your precepts.
Ok, finally the last of the last. I need to learn how to be more responsible concerning taking responsibility for my failures and following your word to be a good servant. I also need to learn responsibility with saving and giving money to YOU and others.
Last of the last of the last I only want to learn what it means to love YOU with all my mind, heart and soul and then to do just that and love YOU with all my mind, heart and soul. Once I can do that then I know I will always be satisfied in YOU.
I need to try. I need to try, and pray and ask YOU Lord to take control. I don't see my set future and that scares me a bit, but I ust see myself as I have always been kind of wnadering and roaming this earth taking each day that you give me at a time. I don't think my imagination can stretch that far of how beautiful heaven will be, even with the description YOU give to us in the Bible.
Ok, now I want to ask of YOU Lord, one favor that you make a change in my heart to soften it again as a little child, not seeking after things that will benefit me, but to consider others first. I think I have become quite content with blessings that YOU have given to me over the years, that sometimes I am not thankful enough or considerate of others.
Second, I want to be able to connect with other people, no more putting up safe guards, or secrets, but I want to be able to open my heart to them of course using wisdom so that they can see genuiness and so that I can be a stronger witness for YOU.
Last I just want to develop a drive, a drive and passion that I see in others who seek after YOU day and night and they are not satisfied unless they are completely satisfied in YOU and following your precepts.
Ok, finally the last of the last. I need to learn how to be more responsible concerning taking responsibility for my failures and following your word to be a good servant. I also need to learn responsibility with saving and giving money to YOU and others.
Last of the last of the last I only want to learn what it means to love YOU with all my mind, heart and soul and then to do just that and love YOU with all my mind, heart and soul. Once I can do that then I know I will always be satisfied in YOU.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Dear Jesus
What is this blog about anyways? I don't know how you will use this, but I hope that this may work for your glory, whether to speak to someone's heart miles away or to show how great you are in my life. It is amazing how you can change the direction of where I wanted to go with this blog. I first envisioned this blog to be a story, something that I could continue to write everyday; however more of an autobiographical story of my life. Yes, I wanted to add on a new chapter each day, but you changed the direction. Instead I find myself writing about the now rather than the past. It has become more like a personal diary to you, and open for the world to read. That's okay with me.
Last night I couldn't sleep. I started thinking about life, the future that awaits not only me, but this whole world. I think so many people are hurting in this world. The rich, the poor, the mighty and the weak and we live in a chaotic world that cannot satisfy our soul.
You know I was thinking about going back to school to seal the deal and become a certified teacher, but then last night I started thinking about studying the Bible. Imagine me as an evangelist, a missionary going throughout the world and telling others about an eternity with no more suffering or pain, no worrying about finances, no addictions, no depression, no one to judge you, no mistakes. I don't consider myself an eloquent speaker and sometimes I think perhaps I am less experienced to get in front of people and start talking, but I know that if you touch my lips and tell me to speak your word, it will be done.
How would you feel if you were told that you could start all over again? Your past, erased, all the mistakes you made, forgotten. How would you feel if in this life you could live by faith knowing that all the chaos in this world would soon pass and your faith would become sight. You would one day live in an eternity where the only chaos will be perfect order, no more tears to dim our eyes ever again. How would you feel to know that there is someone that loves you so much, more than your husband, more than your family, more than the person who tells you they love you everyday. How would you feel to know that this person loves you so much that in fact they actually died a painful death so that you could one day spend eternity with them in the eternity where there is no more pain, no more death, no more hurt and no more tears. How would you feel to know that you do not have to be a billionaire to enter this place, and this place is more beautiful than the top ranked most beautiful islands on this earth. How would you feel to know that it simply takes faith in a man named Jesus to inherit all this? What! My sins forgiven, a wedding to someone who loves me more than my mind can conceive, and an eternity with this person forever all through faith in You Jesus.
Jesus you gave me an opportunity to speak with a lady today about You. She is a Christian, a new convert of a few years. I asked her how she came to trust you as Lord and Saviour of her life and she let me know that her and her family were going through some very difficult times and she ended up looking up to you, she started believing there must be a God . I thank you that you are opening opportunities for me. I want to study your word very well and to speak up for you. Please teach me also how to listen to others. This is something I need to do more of. Thank you Jesus.
Last night I couldn't sleep. I started thinking about life, the future that awaits not only me, but this whole world. I think so many people are hurting in this world. The rich, the poor, the mighty and the weak and we live in a chaotic world that cannot satisfy our soul.
You know I was thinking about going back to school to seal the deal and become a certified teacher, but then last night I started thinking about studying the Bible. Imagine me as an evangelist, a missionary going throughout the world and telling others about an eternity with no more suffering or pain, no worrying about finances, no addictions, no depression, no one to judge you, no mistakes. I don't consider myself an eloquent speaker and sometimes I think perhaps I am less experienced to get in front of people and start talking, but I know that if you touch my lips and tell me to speak your word, it will be done.
How would you feel if you were told that you could start all over again? Your past, erased, all the mistakes you made, forgotten. How would you feel if in this life you could live by faith knowing that all the chaos in this world would soon pass and your faith would become sight. You would one day live in an eternity where the only chaos will be perfect order, no more tears to dim our eyes ever again. How would you feel to know that there is someone that loves you so much, more than your husband, more than your family, more than the person who tells you they love you everyday. How would you feel to know that this person loves you so much that in fact they actually died a painful death so that you could one day spend eternity with them in the eternity where there is no more pain, no more death, no more hurt and no more tears. How would you feel to know that you do not have to be a billionaire to enter this place, and this place is more beautiful than the top ranked most beautiful islands on this earth. How would you feel to know that it simply takes faith in a man named Jesus to inherit all this? What! My sins forgiven, a wedding to someone who loves me more than my mind can conceive, and an eternity with this person forever all through faith in You Jesus.
Jesus you gave me an opportunity to speak with a lady today about You. She is a Christian, a new convert of a few years. I asked her how she came to trust you as Lord and Saviour of her life and she let me know that her and her family were going through some very difficult times and she ended up looking up to you, she started believing there must be a God . I thank you that you are opening opportunities for me. I want to study your word very well and to speak up for you. Please teach me also how to listen to others. This is something I need to do more of. Thank you Jesus.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Dear Jesus
Today is a beautiful day. I love the sunshine. I love the warm breeze. I am off of work for the next two days and so I want to make sure I spend this time wisely. I am in a point in my life where I just want to draw closer to you I want to refocus my life on you and minister to others using the gifts that you have blessed me with. I love music and I love writing, and now that I am learning a musical instrument I want to compose worship songs and choruses. Maybe I can even introduce these to the church. Jesus, you know the desires of my heart and you know thaht there are so many. If there is anything that I have learned it is that I need to focus on one thing at a time. Many times I tried to do everything at once, but I was unable to perform to the best of my ability. I am asking that you sort throught the desires of my heart and according to your will do what you will to do with them for your purpose, for your glory.
My goal everyday is to learn more about you. I want to fall in love with you everyday. Everyday I want my passion and desire to serve you to be rekindled and ever growing. So, I agree it is important to feed my soul with the word of God. I really like my pocket bible, it comes very handy and I read everyday now. I am working my way through the book of Genesis. I am ahead of the Thru the Bible radio broadcast that is airing each day with Dr. Mc Gee going through the bible and explaining scripture. I assume that I will finish reading the entire book of Genesis this week and then after reading it I will review again with Thru the Bible radio broadcast.
It is so important to read your word and to fill myself with the knowledge of the bible, because it helps me to live more by faith in this uncertain world.
I love you , I really do and I trust that you will use me to get the message of salvation out to people in the world. Especially, when I feel who am I to you Lord? I know that you will remind me I am more than a conqueror through You.
This is my desire.
My goal everyday is to learn more about you. I want to fall in love with you everyday. Everyday I want my passion and desire to serve you to be rekindled and ever growing. So, I agree it is important to feed my soul with the word of God. I really like my pocket bible, it comes very handy and I read everyday now. I am working my way through the book of Genesis. I am ahead of the Thru the Bible radio broadcast that is airing each day with Dr. Mc Gee going through the bible and explaining scripture. I assume that I will finish reading the entire book of Genesis this week and then after reading it I will review again with Thru the Bible radio broadcast.
It is so important to read your word and to fill myself with the knowledge of the bible, because it helps me to live more by faith in this uncertain world.
I love you , I really do and I trust that you will use me to get the message of salvation out to people in the world. Especially, when I feel who am I to you Lord? I know that you will remind me I am more than a conqueror through You.
This is my desire.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Dear Jesus
I have been reading my pocket bible lately, starting with the book of Genesis and starting to soak everything in and all the wonders and promises of God. I can't believe that I didn't live by the realization that You are the same God of the old testament, the same God of today, tomorrow and forever nothing changes. Nothing changes. I look at the world today and Jesus I know your heart is broken by what you see, I know you are not slack concerning your promises, but you are merciful, but when you come there will be no more opportunity, you will come this time in judgement. Oh Jesus, it is so easy to forget. I want to live each day in anticipation of you and never forsaking or taking for granted your promises. It is so easy to get caught up with this world. You know today I said I was going to stay focus, but it took only a few minutes for me to do some online shopping for sales, and even though I looked through some second hand stores for houseware, electronics and other stuff, I look back and realized I wasted time considering stuff I didn't really need. Imagine if my whole life is consumed with the empty stuff of this world and you come or you should call me out of this world to give a report. Set fire to those stuff in front of me and it will burn. Jesus I want to dedicate my life for rewards that will never burn, the only burning I want to have is the desire in my heart to live for you constantly and to know nothing as the apostle said but You Jesus, and You crucified. It brings power and a feeling I can't describe.
Today I listented to the hillsong From the INside out and although I have listened to thsi song many times, this time around I felt a peace and understanding of what each word meant.
Today I hope to pick up a camcorder and I wish to do more videos and post, but maybe this time of songs that I have written for you. We have had a rocky relationship haven't we...except you are the one that is always steady, the anchor and I have been the one wanting to test and explore other waters. Many times, countless times I vowed to change and then my focus shifted, but I realize that I can do nothing in and of myself i couldnt give you a little bit of me, but I needed to surrender all. I love you so much.
I have a camera I have not used as much but I hope to use that too and take more pictures of everything. Show me, teach me direct my path Lord Jesus, I want to know what you will have me to do with the blessings that you have blessed me with.
You are my desire.
Today I listented to the hillsong From the INside out and although I have listened to thsi song many times, this time around I felt a peace and understanding of what each word meant.
Today I hope to pick up a camcorder and I wish to do more videos and post, but maybe this time of songs that I have written for you. We have had a rocky relationship haven't we...except you are the one that is always steady, the anchor and I have been the one wanting to test and explore other waters. Many times, countless times I vowed to change and then my focus shifted, but I realize that I can do nothing in and of myself i couldnt give you a little bit of me, but I needed to surrender all. I love you so much.
I have a camera I have not used as much but I hope to use that too and take more pictures of everything. Show me, teach me direct my path Lord Jesus, I want to know what you will have me to do with the blessings that you have blessed me with.
You are my desire.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Dear Jesus
I bought a bible this week, a pocket bible. I will read it everyday and I am determined to hide your word in my heart, to learn and serve and love you with all my heart. I began today to read the book of Genesis, I read a few chapters and stopped to write this then I will read again. In the meanwhile I am listening to the radio broadcast by Dr. Mc Gee Thru the Bible. I asked YOU today to touch my lips I want to speak for you. I am by no means a preacher, but I know Lord that you can use the simple things to work for YOU. There is so much chaos in this world and many people searching for answers I want to speak for YOU whatever tool it is you have me to use, music, writing, presenting, one on one encouragement I just want to work until the day You call me home. There are souls to be saved. I am resolved like Johnathan Edwards to live life finding my only satisfaction in you, never being content with my work, but always desiring you more becoming a person after your own heart. I will work endlessly to reach out to the lost souls.
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